Male Baldness Info

I am 27 years old person. I have a tall structure and good looks. I earn very well
as per my countries standard.
But I am zero at all things. All I can do is work for people very well.
My father brought me up as a obedient son or in other words I was not treated well im my childhood.
Everything I did was part of a order. My confidence never developed.
This continued in my teenage, somewhere I felt that I am incomplete since I have no backing.
Or just that something humilating or bad takes place I cannot stand it, it feels like my heart is
being shredded in a mixie. And I feel my brian is being squeezed. I cannot control this and I feel
DULL.
I am big zero at relations so much so that I dont have girl friend. I dont have confidence to do anything.
I chose programming as my career but now when after doing lot of donkey work when I am getting work as a
programmer I dont feel like doing it.
I dont feel like doing any kind of work.
My life is nothing but a routine, it was school-home in early age, now it is office-home.
I dont feel like living although I have joined swimming in last few days.
I dont have enthusiasm to live. When I think of myself I feel all 27 years of my life I was some how
dishonest with myself, living according to the conditions I was in.
All I have done in these years in menial work for people.
I dont have my personality as such. Never developed one. Whenever I had chance to develop it I was on
a back foot since I nervously thought what people will say. I always tried for others. Life has been
a jail sentence for me in which I have nothing to do with but since I am born in a family. I have
to do something so that they are not looking down in front of other people.
Now I am loosing my hair due to male pattern baldness and I think even my wedding wil be a compromise.
I feel any intelligent girl wil realize that I have issues. So all the chance of having good life
partner is GONE.
What I wil get a GRIL who will be lacking in what I have OR just like me. SOMEONE with no AIM IN LIFE,
not capable of doing anything.
IF I REMEMBER ALL OF MY PAST LIFE there is nothing to be proud of or even feel good about.
I DONT WANT EVEN A DAY that I want to relive. I HAVE VERY SICK FEELINGS OF EACH AND EVERY happening in
my life.
It is as good as I dont have family, they are there but I dont have any bond to any other person in this
world. I wil give them money and do my duty but I DONT HAVE LOVE or that emotional attachment. I want to have
but they are sick, never talk and live in there own world.
Whichever person I loved and respected was failure for me, since I depended on them. My way of living life
was do anything and everything for the person you love/respect.
I tend to use them as my base of my confidence, all my decisions, thinking.
I think my life is a BIG WASTE, I wish to donate all my organs and die.
BUT In India there is no way to do this.
The fact that even after living 27 years on earth I am such a HOPELESS person is a BIG ENOOUGH reason
for me to die WITH HUGE AMOUNT OF SHAME.
Any way I can do this?
What concrete steps can I take to change this completely?
I HAVE NO AIM OR MOTIVE IN MY LIFE.

Id like to braid my hair.
I mean they have mohawaks, and mullets, and even male pattern baldness. But no cornrows. Is yahoo discriminating or what?