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I Lost My Virginity To An Escort (prostitute) At 19. I’m Now 26 And Have A Low Libido. Anything Wrong With Me?

Friday, November 13th, 2009

So when I was a sophomore in college back in 2003, I got desperate and paid an escort (a.k.a. hooker/prostitute, same darn thing) to have sex because I didn’t want to be a virgin after my teen years. I am now 26/male. I’ve had sex with about 40 women total, more than half were escorts and/or strippers. The remaining majority are girls I meet off the internet on sites like grisliest. I’ve also been addicted to strip clubs and spent thousands, in them over the past 8 years (yeah, I started getting hooked on them when I became legal). I feel like I can’t even pull a girl in public now. I don’t have any confidence, nor do I have any friends. In fact, I have a girlfriend now, and have had a couple others in recent years, but I don’t want to have sex with them. I don’t have the desire for sex with a girlfriend because I’m so use to one-night-stands and no emotion attached, that I am scared to have a girl actually like/love me. I’m not use to that and all I know is wham-bam-thank-you-mam. So girls that I date long term now leave me because I won’t have intercourse with them. But yet, I still find myself online hooking up with girls for wild freaky one-night-stand sex. That seems to be all I know now. Even then, its hard for me to become sexually aroused.
My question is, because of my horrible sexual experiences in my young adult years, have I been ruined? Is there some reason I can’t get sexually aroused any more? I can’t fall in love and have no desire for relationships. My girlfriend of 6 months is about to dump me because I don’t spend enough time with her and don’t have sex with her. Little does she know, I’ve cheated on her 3 times with less-than-attractive older women I met off the internet for one-night-stands. Do I need to see a psychiatrist or something? Somebody help me!!!
Oh yeah, I also take finasteride (the generic Propecia drug) in 1mg doses to prevent baldness. Not sure if that matters tho.

I Lost My Virginity To An Escort (prostitute) At 19. I’m Now 26 And Have A Low Libido. Anything Wrong With Me?

Saturday, October 31st, 2009

So when I was a sophomore in college back in 2003, I got desperate and paid an escort (a.k.a. hooker/prostitute, same darn thing) to have sex because I didn’t want to be a virgin after my teen years. I am now 26/male. I’ve had sex with about 40 women total, more than half were escorts and/or strippers. The remaining majority are girls I meet off the internet on sites like grisliest. I’ve also been addicted to strip clubs and spent thousands, in them over the past 8 years (yeah, I started getting hooked on them when I became legal). I feel like I can’t even pull a girl in public now. I don’t have any confidence, nor do I have any friends. In fact, I have a girlfriend now, and have had a couple others in recent years, but I don’t want to have sex with them. I don’t have the desire for sex with a girlfriend because I’m so use to one-night-stands and no emotion attached, that I am scared to have a girl actually like/love me. I’m not use to that and all I know is wham-bam-thank-you-mam. So girls that I date long term now leave me because I won’t have intercourse with them. But yet, I still find myself online hooking up with girls for wild freaky one-night-stand sex. That seems to be all I know now. Even then, its hard for me to become sexually aroused.
My question is, because of my horrible sexual experiences in my young adult years, have I been ruined? Is there some reason I can’t get sexually aroused any more? I can’t fall in love and have no desire for relationships. My girlfriend of 6 months is about to dump me because I don’t spend enough time with her and don’t have sex with her. Little does she know, I’ve cheated on her 3 times with less-than-attractive older women I met off the internet for one-night-stands. Do I need to see a psychiatrist or something? Somebody help me!!!
Oh yeah, I also take finasteride (the generic Propecia drug) in 1mg doses to prevent baldness. Not sure if that matters tho.