What Is Wrong With Me (mentally)?

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Hi, I’ll be brief as I can, but I have a lot to say.
I have been depressed a lot lately. Being 21, I have lots of opportunities at my door. I recently opened a small internet store 2 months ago, which has, so far, turned out to be quite successful, thanks to my business partner. I also started University this year, hopefully to major in business. But, I cannot progress. I am in a rut. So, I decided to assess myself by writing out what I can pick out that makes me depressed:
1. I can’t focus. I just recently started university, only to not do the required essays on time, which is crucial to pass the courses. I try to sit down to do them, and then become easily distracted by everything. I try to disconnect myself from the world to complete these assignments, and my mind still wanders. I just can’t seem to organize myself, or generally focus on the task at hand.
2. I am incompetent on completing tasks for my business, friends, and everyday life. I only do things out of personal pleasure; not because I’m lazy, because I’m not interested.
3. I panic and worry too much. These tasks pile up. And make me worry. I worry so much I can’t get stuff done because I’m worried. So I pull my hair (which is leading to balding, accelerating male pattern baldness), pick my skin (face, other body imperfections, etc.), and dwell upon thoughts or situations where I don’t have power to control. In fact, it has gotten to the point where I ruined a friendship, possibly relationship, with a beautiful girl I have met because she did not respond to text messages right away. I started to worry, and so I flooded her with texts on how I feel, and then I asked her to stop treating me poorly, and that she’s giving me mixed signals. This offended her and now I feel she doesn’t want to associate with me. I am obsessed about her, and there is not a reason. This is one of many examples of me worrying.
4. I am way too self conscious of myself. I look in the mirror and focus on imperfections about myself. Imperfect teeth, imperfect hairline, facial blemishes, body type (though I’m physically fit and am fairly active), etc. When I go over these imperfections, I become embarrassed of myself, and thus feel less confident when meeting new people (especially girls my age).
5. I become annoyed easily, and am a very anxious person, for no reason at all. Example: When my dad asks me to do something for him, sometimes I get very annoyed — to the point I get anxiety — not an attack, just very defensive. Or when customers ask for details on their orders. I get pissed off at them. When I am demanded or asked to do something, I get annoyed.
I feel like my life is a crumpled up ball of paper. Distressed, tired, worried, anxious, depressed. I don’t know why.
Deep inside I’m a great person, people tell me I’m nice. I try to do good. I just am really, really depressed.
I know there are plenty of psychologists (or at least, people who are good at analyzing; yahoo answers rocks!) that browse through here, and any opinions can help.
Or, maybe one can suggest who I should see to help me cope through these problems. Or perhaps recommend a treatment, herbal, or not.
I’m pouring out my heart here. I appreciate anyone sitting through and listening to this story.

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Post Title: What Is Wrong With Me (mentally)?
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Posted: 1st November 2009
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7 Opinions have been expressed on “What Is Wrong With Me (mentally)?”. What is your opinion?
  1. Branden says:

    Are you Adrian Monk? But like ADDrian Monk?

  2. FUNNY CLOWN I EAT CHILDREN says:

    ADHD? i dunno…maybe ask a psycologist?

  3. Patric Stevenson says:

    a doctor can prescribe some pills that will work. that is pretty much all you need. that and support from friends and family

  4. that’s just like me. everythimng is piling up on my plate and i can’t keep control. i worry about the little things and the big things don’t matter anymore.
    just keep things simple and balanced. i know it’s hard to hear. more like hard to do…
    sleep a lot.
    i’m feeling a lot like this too, but i’m only in high school and it’s getting the best of me.
    i don’t know how to help, but doesn’t it feel good to vent?

  5. Artism says:

    you sound identical to me.
    Find someone to talk to about your anxiety…maybe get profesional help. Write in a journal. find a creative outlet.
    apologise to the people you have harmed (That girl, your father) this will help put you at peace.
    tell yourself good things about yourself when you look in the mirror.
    after every bad thing you think about yourself, think three good things.
    thought habits will formulate and soon you will be thinking more positively.
    remember your worth and unique beauty to the world.
    hope that helped =)

  6. valentin says:

    I think you could benefit from talking to a psychologist or support group of some kind. I’d also suggest meditation which can help you center yourself and calm down. I’d also try getting a massage which improves mood and is actually recommended for people who suffer from depression. Check out this link: http://www.todaysholisticliving.com/2008/11/how-to-love-yourself/
    You can also get info on meditation on that site. Good luck!

  7. The BlackCheetah says:

    The answer to this is find a woman, if you can’t find her, they are all over the net, some even strip for you. Or go to a porn site with live cams, register and call the women sluts and laugh at how pathetic they look open legs and splitings, and showing butts (drools). or What I always say when things are down, and no woman around… Masturbate.

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